El libro de vida ~ Special edition Part 41 THE END~

Part 30



I understood that I lost him for all the time. I opened drawer took paper and started to write. I wasn't able to say my story to anybody, so thats why I wrote everything in the paper. The number of them was growing every moment. I wrote 4 pages and my hands with eyes became very tired, thats why I decide to take a walk. i went to the valey though it was really far away. I really didn't cared about it. I sat down and memories came back to my head. Every moment with Mikel. his kisses, touches and finally raping after beautiful things. Though he wasn't stranger to me I couldn't forgive to him that. I loved him so much, because he was the only one to me. I sat there for a while and then came back home. Down the street I was going with lowered eyes. I was scared of every person that I met in my way. Even my shadow was scaring me. When I came back home first I met Rosa.
- You wont run from me. Whats happened to you? She asked.
- Nothing, everything is ok.
- You had argue with Mikel. I know, because I saw him crying.
- I don't care about him, he don't exist to me. I said.
- What's happened? Tell me.
- It's our bussness and it will be only between us. He broke my heart.
- What is going on with him? Why did he done that to you?
- If you only would know what he have done to me....
- Then tell me.
- No....I want to forget it.
- But while living near Mikel you won't forget him.
- Then what do you offer to me? I need this job and money. I said.
To the kitchen came Chimena with letter in her hands.
- How are you Monika? She asked.
- I listened what you said and now way better.
- By the way I have something to you. She said and gave me the letter.
I took it and recognised Mikel handwritting.
- He left home and it seems that he is not going to come back. She said.
- What? He left?
- You are the only one to whom he left letter. Maybe there he wrote why he done so.
I was looking to that letter and I felt how tears were coming to my eyes. I opened the envelope.
" Angel,
From this moment I leave your life. You made me feel so happy and I have you only pain. I feel shame on me. I acted like real asshole. I want you to know that I will love you all my life and I hope that one day you will forgive me. Don't search me. Like this its going to be better for both of us. Always in my heart. Kisses for last time.
With love Mikel"
- Can I take from you loan? I asked.
- Well yeah, but not much. Chimena said.
- But maybe you could help to me? I asked.
- What do you need? She asked.
- I need apartment. i want to work in office without free days. I won't buy anything what I just see.
- Other workes would not get that, but as for you i will help as I can.
- Could we do that today? I asked.
- Sure, you know today I saw were people solds apartment. Just give me a second I will take money.
- What are you going to do Monika? Think well what are you doing. Rosa said.
- Everything is going to be ok, believe in me Rosa.
Chimena came back and we left. That apartment was in the house opposite house that Mikel had his apartment. I didn't said anything to Chimena about that. I really liked this place. It didn't cost a lot, because owner wanted to sold it quickly. Chimena payed to them.
- I will everything to you. I said.
- We will make an agreement. You will continue writting about your life. When you will finish we will bring it to publishing house and if they will like it you will have a book. Then you will give back to me money if not then it will be my present to you.
- I would like to give it back to you, no matter what will happen.
- So we made a deal? She asked.
- Well ok. I said.
- Let's go to take all your stuff.
- I will come later because I want to be here alone a bit.
Chimena left and I went to the window. I couldn't see Mikel car anywhere. Then I turned around and went to look better my new home. Soon i came abck to the window. I saw him. He has just arrived. He had his suitcases. From my pocket I took envelope with letter that I wrote to him.
" Mikel,
I never needed you to be strong, I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs, I never needed pain, I never needed strain.My love for you was strong enough you should've known. I never needed you for judgement, I never needed you to question what I spent, I never asked for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me. And it's a little in the conversations, there isn't anything that you can say. And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me and listen to me because, I don't want to.... Stay another minute, I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush....There is no other way, I get the final say, because, I don't want to, do this any longer, I don't want you, there's nothing left to say, Hush....I've already spoken, our love is broken. I never needed your corrections, on everything from how I act to what I say, I never needed words, I never needed hurt, I never needed you to be there everyday, I'm sorry for the way I let go, of everything I wanted when you came along, But I am never beaten, broken, not defeated, I know next to you is not where I belong, and it's a little late for explanations, there isn't anything that you can do...No more words....No more lies.....No more crying...No more pain.....No more hurt....No more tryin'..... Sorry.
Monika"
I read it. I wanted to give it to him, because I thought that I will leave home first, but no. He won't get it. Better I will say everything straight to him. I through it away and went to him. When Mikel opened doors he was surprised.He wasn't waiting for me.
- Monika.... He said.
- Chimena gave to me your letter. I said.
- There I said everything.
- I know, but you don't have to leave your home.
- I can't live near you and know that you can't be mine.
- Listen to me. I have to leave your life and home. And I have done that, because there isn't my place. I don't belong there. I am leaving forever. I said.
- Are you coming back to Malaga? He asked.
- It doesn't matter, but really far away from our love.
- Will you forgive me?
- I already done that, because I can't keep anger in my heart. It makes me feel there big pain.
I came closer to him and kissed me. Then I turned and left him.
- Monika wait.... Monika!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mikel grabbed his home keys and ran after me. i saw that he was going after me and I started to run too. He caught me.
- I won't let you to leave. He said.
- mikel let me go. It's going to be better.
- How it can be better if we both love each other and we can't be together?
- Such a life
- He can go to hell if you are not near me. i don't have what to live for.
- Stop talking such a things.
- Lets leave together were nobody will know us. There we will be able to start new life
- How many times we will start new life? Maybe it's enough to play.
Mikel was looking at me.
- Don't look at me like this because I can't. For a while lets live without each other.
- For how long?
- For few months for sure. If we have to be together then we will.
I gave to him a short kiss and went. He was looking while I was walking. When he didn't saw me anymore we went back to his apartment.

Oh.... So sad part.. But as always incredible damn great. Thank you
Can't wait to read more

A bit sad but same time great part

Naww sis you made me blush Thank you
Thank you Katja

what. tha. fuck I'm gone for 10 days and you mess with the perfect world I created from your story in my head! Tss.. Evil thinking person ¬¬
Well, I have four things;
Nette and Tülay are funny xD
Ony's an asshole
Mikel is stupid
Monika isn't bery smart either..

I hope it will change soonish tho Daugiaumeermásmaismerh PRASAUTOEPLEASE?

Welcome back sis
Well I think that 10days it's enough for me to mess up everything
Ony is Ony....blonde and everything said by that
Mikel.... he was drunk and...oh you know guys.....Strange creatures
Monika....she acted perpect in such a situation

Nette and Tulay...well it's not surprise that they are funny
About changing...well...I hope the same ha

Blame it on the boose
It will better change m'dear Or batman will be not very happy ha

You chose "Hush Hush" really well!!
And i really love that part!!!
Mar,nice to see you here again! )

Mar: Blame whom???? You think that I am scared of this Ha no way...try to scare me again

Tulay: I love that song. The words of the song touched my heart. Nice to hear that you love this part

Thanks Tülay (: It's good to be back
Err, Hush Hush from who?

Laura; Boose, Alco Holi

pussycat dolls - hush hush...
i really love that song.. but slow version... clip version isn't so good... :/

Laura is sending it to me. My PC is only being very slow.. Even a turtle with a broken leg is faster..

Oh you mean that Mar
Yeah that song is from PCD....
Love just slow version
Clip version sucks

Yesh, alcohol
What did you thought I meant then?

Boose almost like goose

Yes, Mikel's a goose xD thanks to the boose.. *cough*

Hush, Hush is amazing (:

Girls, please, just don't spam...

Oh, yes, sorry.. Bad habbit xD

Monikute wrote:Girls, please, just don't spam...

well, first of all.. the next thing I'm going to say, I reallyreally do not want to be mean or anything and I don't wanna argue or anything.. it is just my stupid opinion and I just need to say this:

I'M VERYVERYVERYVERY HAPPY THAT FINALLY HERE IS SOMEONE TALKING AND HERE IS SOMETHING YOU CAN READ, BECAUSE ALL OF THESE FORUMS ARE SO DEADD! so it is really funny when someone is spamming here, haha

but I know that you're admin and that's your job, but in this situation... it's great that our lovely forum is a liiiiittle bit more alive now

Yeah, i'm happy for that too Nette. And i'm not angry at all You can discuss here and etc...
I was just wondering what there wouldn't be big spams. And i'm sure there won't be. I trust you guys.

That's great!

So where is a new part Laura? Huh?

Part 31


When Mikel was in his apartment he called to Basty.
- What should I do, to make her back? Mikel asked.
- Go to your home maybe like this you will be able to get her back. But will you tell to me what have you done to her? Basty asked.
- It will be only between us...sorry.
I packed my things and Chimena brought them to my apartment. I asked everybody to say to Mikel that I came back to Malaga. When he will know this he won't search me. Chimena came back from me and found Mikel there. When he arrived to his home, he ran to my room and saw that it was empty.
- Where is she? Mikel asked.
- She had just left back to Malaga. I am really sorry bro. Chimena said.
Mikel understood that he lost me for all the time. I talked with Chimena and decided to take some holidays until I will write the book. I started to like writting. Now all my days were only writting. I was writting until very late. Like this was passing days, weeks. My life changed and even I have changed too. I didn't had long hair anymore. Jeans changed dresses, but still I loved jeans. I started to wear high heels. Mikel didn't came back to his home. Everyday I saw him through the window. Few times he passed my way in the street, but he didn't saw me. Passed two months. I was really tired after writting book. Few days ago my head started to spin and I wanted to puke.
- You should go to the hospital. Chimena said.
- For what? I asked.
- You don't look very good.
- I don't fell good now, but it will pass.
- Are you ready to show your book?
- I am a bit scared.
- You don't have to. I love what I have read.
We came out of the building where I lived and we met with Mikel.
- What he is doing here? Chimena asked.
- I don't know. I see him first time after two months. I said.
Mikel noticed Chimena.
- Sis... He said.
- Hey bro. She said and they hugged.
My heart started to beat like crazy.
- Will you introduce me with your friend? Mikel asked.
I turned to him.
- We already know each other. I said.
Mikel was surprised.
- Monika is that you? Finally you came back. He said.
- I haven't left anywhere. I lived near you all the time.
- What do you mean? Chimena asked.
- I have apartment in this building.
Mikel pointed.
- Why I haven't saw you? He asked.
- You thought that I wasn't in Madrid, I think thats why. I said.
- Mikel we have to go. said Chimena.
- What are you doing tonight? Mikel asked.
- I think that nothing. I said.
- So maybe we can met then. He said.
- Sure, why not? I said and went together with Chimena
- Do you still feel something to him? Chimena asked.
- Probably that not. I said.
- You don't have to say anything more. You love him.
Mikel went to Javi.
- Why so happy? Javi asked.
- I met one person. Mikel said.
- Whom? Ronaldinho? Javi asked.
- It seems that you would be happy when you would met him. Mikel said and started to laugh.
- So tell me whom did you met. Javi said.
- You won't believe, but Monika.
- Finally she came back.
- All the time she was here in Madrid. She lived in apartment that was in building near mine apartment building. She changed a lot.
- Come on tell me.
- She became real women. Now she has clothes that very good shows her body lines. She cut her hair and she looks just fantastic. Mikel said.
- Have you talked with her? Javi asked.
- Tonight we will met. I have to tell lots of things to her. I still love her.
I was thinking only about Mikel. In my head I saw his face. Finally again we met, face to face with him. Again my head started to spin.
- How are you? Chimena asked.
- Everything is ok. I said.
Chimena took my notes and went. I was standing and waiting for her.
- It will take one week until they will read everything. Chimena said.
- So can I go? I asked.
- You want to met with him.
I nodded and left her. I went to Mikel apartment, but he didn't opened doors. I felt so sad and wanted to go, but then I saw him.
- Here I am. I was at Javi's place. Sorry that you had to wait for me. He said.
- Everything is ok. I have just came. I said and smiled.
- Oh God how I missed that smile. Come lets go to our old and I hope that not forget place.
We drove to the valey.
- Nah how is beautiful here. I said.
- Yeah because its spring. Lots of beautiful flowers are here.
- Why you didn't came back home? I asked.
- For what? There I have lots of bad memories.
- And in apartment no?
- There everything was without force.
- I already forgot that.
- I can't do that.
- Please...do that for me.
- Do you still love me? Mikel asked.
I lowered my eyes. That moment I felt bad.
- Whats happened? Mikel asked.
- I feel sick. But it goes away. I said.
- What does that mean?
I think that I am pregnant. I said in my mind.
- I am just tired. I said and looked to Mikel. He was waiting other answer.
- I thought that you.....
- What?
- Nothing...it doesn't matter.
- To tell the true those two months I haven't think about you. I said.
- I understood everything. You don't have to say anything more.
- I will say and I don't care if you want to listen to me or not. That I wasn't thinking about you doesn't says that I don't love you, but the rest I won't say to you.
Mikel was surprised.
- Now is your turn to talk. I said.
- I can't talk like you, I still can't understand what you have said.So maybe better I will show it to you.
Mikel came closer to me and kissed me. I answered the same. Again I felt love and safety.
- Our love will never die. It will only grow up every moment. I said.
- But soon it will stop. Mikel said.
- Are you again about the same? I asked.
- I haven't dreamt anymore but one gipsy said from my hand.
- What did she said? I asked.
- My life line is very short. She also said that I will leave son after myself and that everybody will love him.
- Son? With whom?
- She said that with women that I will love a lot and thats you.
I putted my hand on my belly and looked at him.
- Maybe that my head spins it's a sign.
Mikel almost jumped.
- Really? He asked.
- I don't know maybe...but why he has to live if he won't have father.
- Could you get rid of him? Mikel asked.
- I am not killer, it would be my child.
- I want to found out now that.
- Will then change something? I asked.
- Yes.
- Then the only one what I can offer to you is pharmacy and pregnancy test.
- Thats ok. Just please lets go now.
- What good our meeting. Started romantic and will end with pregnancy test.
- It's our child.
- Maybe....
- Soon we will know that. He said and kissed me.
We sat in the car and drove away.

- Whom? Ronaldinho? Javi asked.
Such a goose

Oeh, pregnancy test Laura, you are genius

Well yeah goose

I am genius?
Thank you Mar